Relationship: The Reckoning
I was sitting around, depressed about my relationship ending this week. I don’t think i’ll fully not be depressed about it for a while, but i’ve found something that helps me immensely. I was typing up letters that i’d like to send to her when I started reminiscing about our short past together when I had the idea to type up a memoir detailing our relationship from beginning to end. I have completed the first bit of it today and I could do nothing but smile the whole time when reflecting on our first meeting. We have never had trouble as a couple before, so I expect many more days of beautiful reflection. I can’t say when i’ll actually finish it, but I do hope to have it in a readable form that I can post here.
It isn’t simply all the rosey parts, and will be completely, almost embarassingly honest from my perspective. I would be amazingly grateful if I could have her read it over, fill in any gaps and correct any mistaken memories.
One of the most important things i’ve realised during this is the obvious passion she is showing towards getting her career off the ground. I know she loves me, no matter how much it feels like she doesn’t. I know this will be hard for not only myself, but also importantly her as well. I will match her, hour for hour in her quest for a better life. I will make myself a better person and focus on becoming successful. She doesn’t want me to be close to her, so I will follow her footsteps and feel as close as I can. I will never have anything but love for her and I want her to respect and love me for more than just my blind love.
